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scribblemoose's WK fics and rekindling my AyaYouji passion. XD Now that reminds me about the sequel to [Red Sea]... in fact the gazillion fics I want to write...

I want to go out. Right now. And drink and chat with friends. It's weird, because I never was much of a club/pub person. It's just not something I do. But around New Year, I spent a weekend at my friend's place and we were talking about my ex and other shit, and I just suddenly said, "You know, I feel like going out for a drink." And he asked me, "the type of place where you get blasted by music and you have to shout to get heard?". I said yeah, and off we went. He didn't mind. I guess he was taking care of me, in a sense, coz I was telling him things about me, and he knew I was sinking low, so to speak. And we haven't spent time together for a long time anyway. We had a really good time. And oh my God, had I forgotten what flirting feels like! I haven't done it for over 2 years! XD

Anyway, I never did understand why all these people go out for drinks and stuff, but suddenly now I do. It's not about getting pissed-drunk, but with the right sort of people, I can have a really good time. Although depressingly enough, I can only think of three friends who are the "right sort of people". And out of these three, there's only one I can just call at any random moment and have a chance of her going out with me right away. Damn damn damn.

I don't know why I'm saying this. In fact I don't know why I want to go out right now. But I feel this emptiness... I don't want to sound like I'm begging for attention and shit, but how do you say it... I feel sort of hollow. Is it because I'm finishing university, sort of moving onto the next stage in my life?