I don't know why I'm saying this

[pez]

Reading scribblemoose's WK fics and rekindling my AyaYouji passion. XD Now that reminds me about the sequel to [Red Sea]... in fact the gazillion fics I want to write...

I want to go out. Right now. And drink and chat with friends. It's weird, because I never was much of a club/pub person. It's just not something I do. But around New Year, I spent a weekend at my friend's place and we were talking about my ex and other shit, and I just suddenly said, "You know, I feel like going out for a drink." And he asked me, "the type of place where you get blasted by music and you have to shout to get heard?". I said yeah, and off we went. He didn't mind. I guess he was taking care of me, in a sense, coz I was telling him things about me, and he knew I was sinking low, so to speak. And we haven't spent time together for a long time anyway. We had a really good time. And oh my God, had I forgotten what flirting feels like! I haven't done it for over 2 years! XD

Anyway, I never did understand why all these people go out for drinks and stuff, but suddenly now I do. It's not about getting pissed-drunk, but with the right sort of people, I can have a really good time. Although depressingly enough, I can only think of three friends who are the "right sort of people". And out of these three, there's only one I can just call at any random moment and have a chance of her going out with me right away. Damn damn damn.

I don't know why I'm saying this. In fact I don't know why I want to go out right now. But I feel this emptiness... I don't want to sound like I'm begging for attention and shit, but how do you say it... I feel sort of hollow. Is it because I'm finishing university, sort of moving onto the next stage in my life?

Comments

[yuki-scorpio.livejournal.com]

*grin* Now that sounds like a good idea~

[vicky-guu-sama.livejournal.com]

The Right Sort of People, preferably single, haha, right?

I think that hollow feelings sorta come and go, even if you have all the money in the world, or have as many kids or husbands you want, you can still feel hollow.

It is probably about speculations and anticipations. But just remember, however you feel, the shitz come when they have to, time flows whatever you do , so what needs to be get over with will eventually ride through.

Oh yah, by the way, I always feel hollow. Sometimes i do destructive things like hitting towards my heart a few times to let it beat again :)

[yuki-scorpio.livejournal.com]

Well, out of the 3, one is female (although I reserve the right to become a lesbian, this one has a bf), one has a gf, and the third is single, but not bf material.

But I do hope to find some single ones *L*

Don't hit too hard. Might stop beating.

You know what, we should go out and have drinks together!

[vicky-guu-sama.livejournal.com]

first, finish the generous amount of alcohol which exists in my household :D

[yuki-scorpio.livejournal.com]

Your household has no gorgeous men to flirt with though XD

Yeah, but sure, when?

[vicky-guu-sama.livejournal.com]

this weekend~you can
and we will make my whole Real player list into Guu play list, continuous laughing and hypering if u wanna :D

[yuki-scorpio.livejournal.com]

Oh oh! BTW you know last time apart from Guu you also showed me this other insane anime... the one with guys obsessed with a supposedly-funny TV show, and the honey-boy etc. Can you upload it to me? XD

[vicky-guu-sama.livejournal.com]

sorry i deleted abit of it due to lack of space
find it on ed
search cromartie
, the v9 version.

[hankko.livejournal.com]

I know what u mean... can't agree enuff... both the clubbing and the solitude business... That's what i feel a lot of times since the beginning of this academic yr... But recently I feel slightly better... Get a book called 'Thick Face, Black Heart'. It's good. =)