I don't know why I'm saying this
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scribblemoose's WK fics and rekindling my AyaYouji passion. XD Now that reminds me about the sequel to [Red Sea]... in fact the gazillion fics I want to write...
I want to go out. Right now. And drink and chat with friends. It's weird, because I never was much of a club/pub person. It's just not something I do. But around New Year, I spent a weekend at my friend's place and we were talking about my ex and other shit, and I just suddenly said, "You know, I feel like going out for a drink." And he asked me, "the type of place where you get blasted by music and you have to shout to get heard?". I said yeah, and off we went. He didn't mind. I guess he was taking care of me, in a sense, coz I was telling him things about me, and he knew I was sinking low, so to speak. And we haven't spent time together for a long time anyway. We had a really good time. And oh my God, had I forgotten what flirting feels like! I haven't done it for over 2 years! XD
Anyway, I never did understand why all these people go out for drinks and stuff, but suddenly now I do. It's not about getting pissed-drunk, but with the right sort of people, I can have a really good time. Although depressingly enough, I can only think of three friends who are the "right sort of people". And out of these three, there's only one I can just call at any random moment and have a chance of her going out with me right away. Damn damn damn.
I don't know why I'm saying this. In fact I don't know why I want to go out right now. But I feel this emptiness... I don't want to sound like I'm begging for attention and shit, but how do you say it... I feel sort of hollow. Is it because I'm finishing university, sort of moving onto the next stage in my life?
scribblemoose's WK fics and rekindling my AyaYouji passion. XD Now that reminds me about the sequel to [Red Sea]... in fact the gazillion fics I want to write...I want to go out. Right now. And drink and chat with friends. It's weird, because I never was much of a club/pub person. It's just not something I do. But around New Year, I spent a weekend at my friend's place and we were talking about my ex and other shit, and I just suddenly said, "You know, I feel like going out for a drink." And he asked me, "the type of place where you get blasted by music and you have to shout to get heard?". I said yeah, and off we went. He didn't mind. I guess he was taking care of me, in a sense, coz I was telling him things about me, and he knew I was sinking low, so to speak. And we haven't spent time together for a long time anyway. We had a really good time. And oh my God, had I forgotten what flirting feels like! I haven't done it for over 2 years! XD
Anyway, I never did understand why all these people go out for drinks and stuff, but suddenly now I do. It's not about getting pissed-drunk, but with the right sort of people, I can have a really good time. Although depressingly enough, I can only think of three friends who are the "right sort of people". And out of these three, there's only one I can just call at any random moment and have a chance of her going out with me right away. Damn damn damn.
I don't know why I'm saying this. In fact I don't know why I want to go out right now. But I feel this emptiness... I don't want to sound like I'm begging for attention and shit, but how do you say it... I feel sort of hollow. Is it because I'm finishing university, sort of moving onto the next stage in my life?
