Another LJ-cut nobody will click on
May. 21st, 2004 11:39 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
pezTo be quite honest, I know I've been neglecting my flist. Not replying when I probably should. But you know, sometimes I feel quite gutted too when I'm totally expecting a reply and get like, none, for posts with specific friends filters, general filters, as well as no filters. It makes me wonder if people are just scanning through. Maybe I've been boring people with all my fandom and university rants. And so yeah, in a childish act of retaliation, I'm not replying much to people in my flist either. And even people who don't ignore me are becoming victims.
And sometimes, I just don't know what to say in reply. I hope those of you who want me to reply will understand me enough not to take my lack of response offensively. You know me. I think I lack something in my brain, I can't seem to say comforting words or sympathise with people most of the time. I'm like that in RL, I'm slightly better but not that much online.
To me LJ isn't a diary, so I don't use private-cuts... which also means I don't say everything in the journal. That's just the way I choose to use it. A lot of things I don't say to anybody anyway, not even family or friends. But if you ask me? A lot has happened in the last half a year. And sometimes I just sit down and wish somebody will pet me on the shoulder and say "I know" even if I haven't said anything at all. But that sort of relationship can only exist on screen, really.
And everything in this entry is so random. The paragraphs don't seem to connect. Nevermind.
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Date: 2004-05-22 12:16 am (UTC)^^;; I'm also awfully shy (it doesn't seem like it though, I know but I am and I want to like squish that part down, so I am and I'm hoping this will come out right) And sometimes I don't comment on people's entries because I don't know what to say either *sheepish look* I think alot of people are like that ahh I'm not making sense am I ^^;;;
And I don't think the paragraphs are random at all, they actually make perfect sense to me O.o but, but, even though we just met, I wouldn't mind petting you and saying, "I know," and the probably just babbling about odd things and going off into a tangent about blah.
^^;;; <-- thinks she's rambled enough. ♥
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Date: 2004-05-22 04:50 pm (UTC)I'm fine with people not responding most of the time! It's just... when I write things directing at/for some people and they don't say a thing, I feel really blah.
*hugs again* Just thank you :)
Oh, randomly... did you know that there really is a word "blah"? At least there is a definition at dictionary.com...
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Date: 2004-05-22 05:47 pm (UTC)Quote
"It's just... when I write things directing at/for some people and they don't say a thing, I feel really blah."
Haha, are you talking about my 'RPing online?' It wasn't appropriate for me to reply, so I didn't :P
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Date: 2004-05-22 06:00 pm (UTC)Ooh feeling blah is teh suck ;-; <33 If you're feeling blah, you can always come cuddle in mah lap and be all *nyu* and I could pets youse <33
Ahh! hugs :D!! *huggsies back*
Really? o.o ooh... d00d.. that's so frikkin cool xD!!! ♥ I gotta check that out now >D
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Date: 2004-05-22 06:23 pm (UTC)I'll be poking you online XD
*glomps again*
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Date: 2004-05-23 01:48 am (UTC):p poke me, poke me :D
*hugs hugs teh PEZ* ♥