Perhaps you don't understand the difference in nature of the relationship between Yukimura and I, and that between Renji and I. Under any circumstances, Yukimura's preference comes first, and this is not a sacrifice, it is an honour which says that I matter to him.
I do understand the devotion you show, but even to me, that sounded almost as if you were Yukimura's slave, which I am sure you are not. Please forgive the severity of my reaction. I'm sure you can see that to anybody not actually in your situation, it is hard to understand why it would be an honour for you to give up a friend just because your... caretaker, maybe? - just because Yukimura says so. In my experience, even freedom given up freely and willingly is freedom you miss in the long run. And the freedom of choosing your friends for and by yourself is something that is most important.
I am sorry Yukimura-sama, I didn't mean to offend you. Surely you understand my reaction and know it's nothing personal, but merely a product of my education/first hand experience in such matters?
It may seem at first glance that this is a master-slave relationship, but I assure you it is not. I love and adore Yukimura, and I trust his judgement. If he believes somebody is not good for me... it is not that I will let go without any question, of course. And I am not giving up my freedom... it is hard to explain, but in time, I hope you'll understand.
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Date: 2005-10-04 04:21 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-10-04 04:25 pm (UTC)*KICKS YOU* YOU GIVE UP MY FRIEND RENJI SO EASILY?! BASTARD.:O
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Date: 2005-10-04 04:32 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-10-04 04:43 pm (UTC)I am sorry Yukimura-sama, I didn't mean to offend you. Surely you understand my reaction and know it's nothing personal, but merely a product of my education/first hand experience in such matters?
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Date: 2005-10-04 07:47 pm (UTC)