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To be quite honest, I know I've been neglecting my flist. Not replying when I probably should. But you know, sometimes I feel quite gutted too when I'm totally expecting a reply and get like, none, for posts with specific friends filters, general filters, as well as no filters. It makes me wonder if people are just scanning through. Maybe I've been boring people with all my fandom and university rants. And so yeah, in a childish act of retaliation, I'm not replying much to people in my flist either. And even people who don't ignore me are becoming victims.

And sometimes, I just don't know what to say in reply. I hope those of you who want me to reply will understand me enough not to take my lack of response offensively. You know me. I think I lack something in my brain, I can't seem to say comforting words or sympathise with people most of the time. I'm like that in RL, I'm slightly better but not that much online.

To me LJ isn't a diary, so I don't use private-cuts... which also means I don't say everything in the journal. That's just the way I choose to use it. A lot of things I don't say to anybody anyway, not even family or friends. But if you ask me? A lot has happened in the last half a year. And sometimes I just sit down and wish somebody will pet me on the shoulder and say "I know" even if I haven't said anything at all. But that sort of relationship can only exist on screen, really.

And everything in this entry is so random. The paragraphs don't seem to connect. Nevermind.