Just a bit of rambling

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Dexter called me this evening and asked me if I want to join "da bin lo" (hot pot) tonight. I was really happy he asked, but since I already bought food and told my sister I'd cook tonight, I turned down the offer. And anyway, I don't feel up to moving around tonight. I just want to sit down and doodle things, download things, and defrag things.
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It's going to get colder this weekend. -1 or lower. Although that might not sound cold at all to some of you, it's cold enough for me. I think I have problems regulating body temperature. (a thought just came up. When it's really cold... you can't tell the difference, I suppose? I mean a person isn't able to feel the difference between -20 and -40, I guess? Random thought.)
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FujiZuka-ness. I've got loads of things in my head, and if I manage to write this fic, it'll be full of fun and evil and angst X_x But I keep telling myself I shouldn't start another fic.
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Downloading Prince of Tennis ep106-120, Chinese-subbed. Knowing most of them are fillers though... sigh. I just want to see them play Rikkaidai (although I guess they'll lose), and see if Tezuka's coming back soon. To be quite honest, as an anime character, Tezuka's rather boring. But I like what he represents... determination and strength and spiritual leadership.
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Somebody told me that the Fuji in the pic of him holding Tezuka-plush looked a bit like me in the past. Hmmm... apart from the hair, I have no idea where that comment came from. I'd kill myself if I have his cuteness.
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Ever just sat there, without music, TV, comp, books, any sort of distraction, and really thought about things?

I came up with a lot of things, like what I ought to be really doing for the next few months, and that I'm really, really fucked up. (what's new, I hear some say). I've really fucked up a lot of things. I'm not happy with who I am right now. And that feeling's pretty scary.
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For dinner I made katsudon for myself, my sister, and her boyfriend. It was delicious. I feel accomplished.
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I'm going to doodle now.