2004: Looking Back
Dec. 31st, 2004 10:03 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
pezI think none of this is very coherent *shrugs*
Online-wise, I have re-entered fandom and become more active on LJ. Through that I made many, many new friends, the most important ones probably being![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
lina_lau, arithion, odrade42, ebbii, chinawolf... whom I all met through the Prince of Tennis fandom. I have also met some friends in person =D <3333!
So yes, fandom. Started to watch anime again, and write fanfiction, draw (horrible) fanart, and all that. It's kept me mostly happy. Fandom throws shit at people every now and then, as it always does, but the good outweighed the bad muchly.
Tezuka has taken over my life. Together with Atobe, Mizuki, Oshitari, and all the gorgeous tennis boys. I'm typing this sitting next to cardboard Tezuka.
As for offline, it's been quite a year. Education is over and done with, and I've started my first proper job.
The family thing... is still the family thing. Four people who I love and who drive me up the walls. My mum's excessive worrying, my dad's intolerable reasoning, my eldest sis'... general problems and my 2nd sis' loud singing. Something like that.
I've spent the year being single, which isn't really either YAY or WOE. I know that, given my attitude and personality, it'd be a miracle to actually get into another relationship (I get annoyed and scared when people start to like me too much or become dependent on me). But whatever. There has been no bringing of men home to fuck, because it's not something I do. (which probably is a good and bad thing *sigh*)
For the first two or three months of this year I spent pretty much... I wouldn't say depressed, but I felt rather sad. Which was partly the reason why I tried the fandom thing again, so that I had something to do. Probably some friends knew that I was practically being crushed by university, such was the pressure of final year in Imperial College. Well probably that, and the weird loneliness that came with growing up and growing out of childhood finally, stuff like that. But for the first quater of the year, I was pretty unhappy.
The next few months were exams, project, and fandom, in no particular order. Was a bit wobbly health-wise, which probably didn't help with things. There were one or two nights of random depression which I probably did record on LJ, or didn't, can't really remember.
From the summer onwards, it had been highs and lows. High being graduation and low being the family thing and confusion about my future, which was probably the same thing at the end of the day. Most of which I don't think I recorded on LJ for unknown reasons.
I had become more settled since my job started early September. In the last few months I've been slowly withdrawing from online life (chatting, primarily) because I had spent a phenomenol amount of time online already and it was starting to become scary. And that I spent too many hours staring at the comp already at work. And my right hand needs a bit of TLC (it isn't that bad at all, but better be safe than sorry).
Reading and writing... I've started writing my own stuff again. Stephen King's On Writing was a rather good read that encouraged me. The Shadow of the Wind by Carlos Ruiz Zafon took my breath away. I've also read some manga and quite a lot of doujinshi.
Health-wise I'm getting sick more easily than ever before. But still healthier than most people I know.
I have no idea what my friends or even family are up to most of the time. My family is *still* calling me "the secretive Pez" because they have no idea what I'm up to either. And if someone asks me... I don't think I quite know what I'm up to either.
That's 2004 for me I think, or as much of it as I can remember anyway.
Happy new year, dudes.
Online-wise, I have re-entered fandom and become more active on LJ. Through that I made many, many new friends, the most important ones probably being
lina_lau, arithion, odrade42, ebbii, chinawolf... whom I all met through the Prince of Tennis fandom. I have also met some friends in person =D <3333!So yes, fandom. Started to watch anime again, and write fanfiction, draw (horrible) fanart, and all that. It's kept me mostly happy. Fandom throws shit at people every now and then, as it always does, but the good outweighed the bad muchly.
Tezuka has taken over my life. Together with Atobe, Mizuki, Oshitari, and all the gorgeous tennis boys. I'm typing this sitting next to cardboard Tezuka.
As for offline, it's been quite a year. Education is over and done with, and I've started my first proper job.
The family thing... is still the family thing. Four people who I love and who drive me up the walls. My mum's excessive worrying, my dad's intolerable reasoning, my eldest sis'... general problems and my 2nd sis' loud singing. Something like that.
I've spent the year being single, which isn't really either YAY or WOE. I know that, given my attitude and personality, it'd be a miracle to actually get into another relationship (I get annoyed and scared when people start to like me too much or become dependent on me). But whatever. There has been no bringing of men home to fuck, because it's not something I do. (which probably is a good and bad thing *sigh*)
For the first two or three months of this year I spent pretty much... I wouldn't say depressed, but I felt rather sad. Which was partly the reason why I tried the fandom thing again, so that I had something to do. Probably some friends knew that I was practically being crushed by university, such was the pressure of final year in Imperial College. Well probably that, and the weird loneliness that came with growing up and growing out of childhood finally, stuff like that. But for the first quater of the year, I was pretty unhappy.
The next few months were exams, project, and fandom, in no particular order. Was a bit wobbly health-wise, which probably didn't help with things. There were one or two nights of random depression which I probably did record on LJ, or didn't, can't really remember.
From the summer onwards, it had been highs and lows. High being graduation and low being the family thing and confusion about my future, which was probably the same thing at the end of the day. Most of which I don't think I recorded on LJ for unknown reasons.
I had become more settled since my job started early September. In the last few months I've been slowly withdrawing from online life (chatting, primarily) because I had spent a phenomenol amount of time online already and it was starting to become scary. And that I spent too many hours staring at the comp already at work. And my right hand needs a bit of TLC (it isn't that bad at all, but better be safe than sorry).
Reading and writing... I've started writing my own stuff again. Stephen King's On Writing was a rather good read that encouraged me. The Shadow of the Wind by Carlos Ruiz Zafon took my breath away. I've also read some manga and quite a lot of doujinshi.
Health-wise I'm getting sick more easily than ever before. But still healthier than most people I know.
I have no idea what my friends or even family are up to most of the time. My family is *still* calling me "the secretive Pez" because they have no idea what I'm up to either. And if someone asks me... I don't think I quite know what I'm up to either.
That's 2004 for me I think, or as much of it as I can remember anyway.
Happy new year, dudes.
