Actually feeling awake and alert, for a change

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<sparkle>Musical Tenisu no Oujisama Absolute King Rikkai feat. Rokkaku ~ First Service ~ is on its way to meeeee!</sparkle>

I hope it gets here by Thursday, since it'll be good Friday and Easter Monday which means if it doesn't get here Thursday then I'll have to wait till next Tuesday AND I WILL CRY.

Higa fic no.2 is in the works, although I have no idea what I'm writing and am just putting words down as they come. Playing the games again definitely helped with background and characterisations, though I suppose it matters very little to anyone else since very few people have played them/know much about Higa anyway. In any case, I need more KiteRin and KaiRin and KiteKaiRin with a (very secretly) sniggering Chinen on the side (who wears long leather trenchcoats and prowls the streets of Okinawa at night, scaring the shit out of both locals and tourists.)

Can anyone please link me to Higa fics, new or old?

Megane Ranger 5 also being written very slowly. And 6 too, although the two parts of totally unrelated; I just had 2 separate ideas that's all. XD; And Lullaby 3... getting there, very slowly...

SanaHay and Yukimura in a wedding dress are both killing me in very good ways.

[edit] It's annoying that I sometimes see people who are so very interesting and would love to talk to a bit more, but then I look at their friends list and see names I severely dislike and so I back away from them.

I am also already careful about what I say, sometimes, because some of my current friends already have those names on their flist and I don't know the exact position/pov some of them have about those names. I know some, but not others. Which leads to various filter levels.** Because, dude, wank is not fun if it's on your own LJ.

** of course, sometimes someone rubs me up the wrong way repeatedly and I wouldn't care what you all think and would forget the filters. But such occurrences are rare.

And then I have all these people who are watching my LJ but they never say anything and I don't know who they are and I feel slightly creeped out, and I don't add people back just because they've added me, because this is a personal AND fandom journal. So uh, yeah, hi, you guys. I don't know who you are and/or I think you have questionable taste in friends and/or we've never talked to each other apart from small fic comment threads, and so I haven't added you back. Doesn't necessarily mean I think you're bad people. I'm just paranoid. Have a nice day.

Comments

[celen.livejournal.com]

Let's start with your icon killing me. I still don't understand what was going on with all the Stitch stuff in his blog. xD

And... Lucky you! The backstage and the small bits of the musical I've seen seem so awesome... I hope someone rips it and uploads it to the net. I'd buy it if I had the chance, but sadly my parents are so strict with buying things from Internet.

Mm, me too... I mean, I always try not to be prejudiced - some of those people seem very nice and I have no doubt they wouldn't be. It's just that if my dislikes and their dislikes don't meet at all, I don't know how that friendship would work. But then again, it could be fine - after all, if there are some people on my friends' friends I don't like, I simply don't have to talk to them. At least that's my philosophy - I don't want to miss a chance to get good friends just because I don't like some of their friends. ^^

[yuki-scorpio.livejournal.com]

I think he once mentioned liking Stitch in his blog so all the fangirls gave him Stitchy presents. XD I wonder if he bought the outfit himself though...

I'll rip and upload if nobody's done it by the time I get mine. Uploading something that size will take a while though. (The benefit of being old is that one gets to control her own expenses. XD)

There are close friends on my friends list who simply keep... questionable people on their flist for the sheer amusement because of the batshit insanity of those people. When I know their position I'm fine... but I can't go round asking people "what do you think about [insert name] who is on your flist?" and sometimes I just feel the need to talk about things under just ordinary friends-lock and so... I'd rather just stay away. There are days when I feel uber bitchy and wanky, but those are rarer now and I'd rather keep stuff like that off my journal. Or under locks. >D

[celen.livejournal.com]

Ahh, okay, that would explain it! I freaked out so badly when I saw the pic of him in that outfit. But my Japanese skills are quite limited so I had no idea what he said in the post. :3

It's great to know that at least someone will. I know that a friend of mine already got hers (she's in Japan, went to see DL4 and got it at the same time) but her comp doesn't have the rip program or something. Well, for the while we're waiting for the Myu, watching the backstage will have to do. xD ♥

Same with some of my friends. About this, I so agree. I read her DL4 post and while it was interesting and I got some new info about it, I was pretty much pissed off by that. Nuhhhh.

[giving-ground.livejournal.com]

People are entitled to their opinions of course but some people manage to state theirs in a way which makes me want to beat them over the head. :D

[yuki-scorpio.livejournal.com]

I agree that people are entitled to their opinions, but sometimes I think their opinions are so wrong that they just aren't entitled to a place in the world.

[quatorze.livejournal.com]

I don't think there's anything paranoid about not LJfriending people who've friended your journal but never say a word... especially if you write about personal things. In fact I've been repeatedly thinking about unfriending quite a few people, simply because a) they never comment, b) they never post, at least stuff I can see, so why am I actually letting them see all my stuff?

(I'm terribly lazy about filtering, usually it's either friends-only or fully-public, nothing in between)

[giving-ground.livejournal.com]

...well. Yes. There is that too. :|

[yuki-scorpio.livejournal.com]

*nods* It's sad... making friends takes a certain level of trust (and accepting risk), but when it's on LJ, trusting anyone's especially hard.

(I have a couple of filters, but don't use them often at all. And some are one-person filters for leaving them messages and stuff because I'm too lazy to email!)

[muzivitch.livejournal.com]

I am so insanely jealous that you're getting Rikkaimyu. I spent yesterday watching the backstage off youtube and shrieking at intermittent intervals. In fact, there was shrieking when I saw your post along the lines of: OMG. RIKKAIMYU. BACKSTAGE. GIMME. WHERE. before I thought to actually look further at your post. :D

Re: the friending thing, I can understand. There are people I've had conversations with but I'm wary of because of who's in their LJ posse. In fact, there was a long period when I lived a hermit-like existence on LJ because I was overly wary of getting connected to, um, people I don't like overmuch. But then I realized 90% of my flist had moved fandoms on me, so unless I wanted to find a new fandom I needed to friend some new people. Still, I sometimes get a little >.>, and there are certain people I still won't friend back. They're free to friend me, of course, since all my fic is posted to my LJ and I don't have a writing journal on LJ, just a ficblog on my domain that I update when I remember.

[yuki-scorpio.livejournal.com]

XD I didn't think about linking to the source since I thought I must be the last one to know they're on youtube, or something.

*nod* Some seem to be serial adders, too, or a dead LJ that exist only to friend people and there's no telling who's actually behind the computer.

There are people who weird me out and I won't friend back, but mostly...... I just don't know who they are! And they don't even share common friends with me... having a separate LJ for fics doesn't seem to help, since I've got one and it's still happening anyway O_o

[arithion.livejournal.com]

Seriously, if that's paranoia then I will gladly join you in it. I don't friend people who a) don't have anything in common with me that I can see apart from random fandom pairings b) haven't even taken the time to reply to my friending post and thus tried to get to know me.

I have no problem with people friending me, but hey, I largely friendslock everything soooo, they'll never see what I don't want them to.

Friend how you want to, and snuggle the Tezplush, and all will be well because he (and lots of us) loveth you!

[yuki-scorpio.livejournal.com]

Yeah.... it's kind of scary, really. Even scarier if they didn't reply to your friending post O_O Gotta wonder what their intentions are.

♥

[reposoir.livejournal.com]

Oh man, were I not completely flocked, I wouldn't friend a lot of people back, especially those who never post, never comment and might very well likely be puppetjournals of tards.

You're not paranoid, you're smart. You don't know these people, they make no effort to interact, meh.

[yuki-scorpio.livejournal.com]

That actually is one of the reasons why I don't go friends-only... it means I might have to add a bunch of people I don't care about, leading to creation of yet another filter...

♥

[yuki-scorpio.livejournal.com]

Ooh oops, forgot the anonmeme's been deleted. Thank god I had the foresight to screencap that Thread of Stupid for documentation purposes.

[ashesto.livejournal.com]

I don't think that's paranoia. If my journal weren't so shallow, I'd probably be like that too. And then, I've already f-locked my LJ anyway 'cause of "oi, wtf why would I want random strangers reading my stuff?"

That being said, what kind of Higa stuff? The most memorable Higa fic I can remember that you might not have read is this one 30_kills series? Which, yeah. Gratuitous murder. I should hunt for more. I have, like... three drabbles myself, but they suck, so. You don't want those.

[mayezinha.livejournal.com]

Well, I don't know in which category I am, because I lurk, I say thanks for the sharing, and I'm working against my shyness on commenting on fics, but in your case is easy, because you blow me away with your writing. XD

I haven't asked if I can friend you, even when we have common friends, because I'm embarrased to do so, and I respect spaces (and I'm not tired yet of the bookmark, because I know that you would not friend me back, and most of the times I get the inner jokes, so what's the harm in that).

I don't write any fic and don't have the possibility of sharing anything, I just babble or squee a bit, so my lj is kinda the Dead zone. I only lock my most ranting entries, because they involve major bitching and I have close people to look at it and don't want to worry them.

Thankfully the wank is decreasing, I hope so, because I don't have the time to netsurf that much, but it's a shame that many journals are been flocked and there's a lot of distrust around. And having fic journals apart from personal journals doesn't solve the matter.

Since my flist is compact, I don't have that "different fronts on the flist" issue, but I think it's awful to stop being yourself because of that, and I don't have any idea to solve it. I just can say that (like in my case) lurkers are not always creeps or serial killers, maybe just shy people.

So sorry for intruding and give you a dime, I don't think these lines are even 2 cents.

[yuki-scorpio.livejournal.com]

I have hardly read ANY Higa fic at all, so any is good. *checks that out* ♥

[yuki-scorpio.livejournal.com]

But I don't think you really lurk. You comment here every now and then and I recognise your name. The real lurkers just /watch/ and never say a thing... and there are quite a few of those who have friended me.

But... I don't understand when you say you are embarrassed?

It's almost inevitable this sort of thing happens as the fandom gets larger. It almost starts to reflects society, just with the added protection of anonymity (is that a word?) so people just do whatever they want.

Putting it in a physical sense... imagine having people following or listening to you all the time, but they never even say hi. They may be shy and well-intentioned, but... it's... strange.

[mayezinha.livejournal.com]

Well, you know, I lurked on some Furuba-related ljs for like a year or more ::blushes::, then Minky made an awesome post near christmas encouraging to post comments, and then you know me in my new evolved stage. XD I'm just embarrased to ask if I can friend you, since I saw that you're on a trouble stage friending, some times I'm too polite for my own good and I'm not quite sure about my language skills. ::pokes fingers:: I have you bookmarked, anyway.

Guess it has to be with the awesomeness in people that intimidates me, or the way I read them that make me feel more at ease to comment than other people.
I lurked on Whisper´s lj for 4 or 5 months before I dared to comment, tried to comment twice on giving_ground's lj before I really did it, and I respect when some people say don't accept friends anymore, like Frog, for example.

[ashesto.livejournal.com]

What do you have? 8DDD That 30_kills one and giving_ground's the only two I can think of. D: