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[pez]

I reckon that when you get super glue on youself, the glue seeps through the skin into the flesh, which is why my fingertips are feeling strange.

I think I've figured out what's wrong with me recently - lack of accomplishment in everything I'm wanting to do. And I'm so tired of hearing "but you've done great in this and this!", "yeah but it takes time,", and other things, because they're either things I don't agree with or know well. When I do things I set a certain standard. Sometimes the standard/criteria is weird but, anyway, I don't like being told I've set my sights too high or I should be happy with what I have - I am happy, but I'm not satisfied, and that's the key. For some things, being satisfied means not moving forward and I believe that's what makes some people fail.

This accomplishment thing is particularly hard to deal with because so far life has been so easy for me. GCSEs & A-levels were a doddle, getting accepted into the uni of my choice didn't even take effort and getting a job was the same. The biggest hurdle so far, apart from settling into this country, and getting sick, was getting my degree. But for that, I worked hard and I got it. For me, life has been such that when I wanted something, I would get it. Sometimes I didn't have to try, sometimes I put in great amounts of effort. But right now, I feel that I'm already tackling the problem from all directions but not even getting a tiny bit closer. I don't think my approach is wrong, but that means I'm just unlucky, which isn't a concept I can easily accept, that my important goals are so heavily dependent on luck.

So. Challenge ♪

:O I should go to bed.

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[chinawolf.livejournal.com]

:)) Deleted bc of obvious reasons.

I'm going to bed now. *hugs*

[arithion.livejournal.com]

I wish I could just hug you and that would help you get what you want to accomplish. All I can do is want you to reach your important goals and help you if I possibly can.

Hope you sleep well, hon. ♥