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[pez]

I'm jealous of silk_over_steel.

Ask me why.

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[soloproject.livejournal.com]

Why? :O

[yuki-scorpio.livejournal.com]

Because when he's sick he gets all the love and care of everyone and all the visits, and when I'm sick and hurting nobody does that for me.

[soloproject.livejournal.com]

*snuggles you* ♥ I know what you mean. And so does Jackal. *squeeze*

[giving-ground.livejournal.com]

*pets*

[shiroibara.livejournal.com]

*CLING*

[yuki-scorpio.livejournal.com]

Because when people are within arm's reach - well, reachable, I mean, I don't know why they don't bother. What's a text message gonna do? If I get asked "are you alright" in a text of course I'm gonna reply yes I am. What else can I say, that I'm curled up in a ball on my bed and only have Tez-plush to cuddle? Doesn't it suck that I'm only worth a couple of text messages, not an actual call that has a human voice or *gasp* a visit?

And apparently telling the world in an unlocked post makes no difference, nobody will even bother replying, maybe I'm sick so often that people ran out of pity for me long ago. And then when I actually complain - like now - people flock by the masses saying of course not, we love you, you're worth a lot. But why now and not before? It's always like this and it really makes me see how much I'm worth to anybody.

[shiroibara.livejournal.com]

This is part of why I would love for you to be over here, so I can go over to your place and cuddle you. Cook for you if you can stand what I make. ^^; But I don't think you should single this out as a barometer of your worth. Why people may not always comment or call or come over doesn't always have to do with you specifically. Flat out, sometimes people need to be told what to do, even if it is offering sympathy, or at least told what the expectations are. If it's not clear (and sometimes 'clear' means explicitly stated and more than once), people may not know what you want. If you get a text that asks if you're alright and you say yes, should the assumption on the other end be 'Pez is lying to me?' For me, it wouldn't be, because if I ask someone a question and they answer it, in most cases I will take them at their word.

People should have run out of pity, because pity is condescending and patronizing and something most of us are better off without. *don't like that word* Sympathy, though, and/or empathy seems to be more what you're seeking. Someone to say 'hey, I care and I want to know what's going on with you'. Someone to bring over tea or just call and chat. I don't think that anyone has run out of that (completely; we all have times where we lack the resources to be terribly sympathetic - February 2006 was the end of my rope in a lot of ways, because I was just too overstretched and burdened and had a few major and a lot of minor freakouts as a result, they were just quiet because I /didn't want to be around people/.) but they may not be aware that when you say 'I'm sick' that this is the response you're hoping for.

Bottom line, you don't get what you don't ask for, and sometimes you have to ask point-blank before you get it.

(And here is where I ask for a global shifting of the time zones so when I go home from work it means I can stalk you and figure out how to make international calls from my home phone. T_T)

And lest you think that Hana has morphed into some cold-hearted bugger, come here so I can hug you and love on you and tell you just how special you are. I am so fortunate to know you and having your friendship has made my life so much better and more complete. ♥♥♥

[(Anonymous)]

Bottom line, you don't get what you don't ask for, and sometimes you have to ask point-blank before you get it.

I need to remember to do that with my boyfriend. I'm not sure if men are stupid or what, but obviously he didn't know what "girlfriend sick = girlfriend in need of visit" =_=

A longer reply when I'm not in a rush to leave the office...

[yuki-scorpio.livejournal.com]

and that was me not logged in, obviously.

[linkyo.livejournal.com]

*was hesitating on clicking the reply button*
- thinking that maybe, this won't be considered-
but then decided to hit the reply button and types *HUGS* *BIG HUGS* for you
because I too.... was in hunger of love and still do sometimes and don't wanna see my fave friend (from my side... of course) feeling 'shut out from the world'

cia you!